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Hello! Thanks for coming back for Part Two of what I learned when I washed my face. This is a blog post about the book “Girl, Wash Your Face” by Rachel Hollis. If you missed part one, you can view that here.

As I said before …in this book she list a lie in the chapters title and then speaks trues into that lie.

Chapter 11: Other People’s Kids Are So Much Cleaner/Better Organized/More Polite

• “If you ever happened to find your peaceful inner bliss while raising children, please don’t tell the rest of us” Page 114
• “Ironically, I think embracing chaos might be the path to finding peace.” Page 115
• “If we believe we can do enough or organize enough or plan enough to make sure that nothing is ever difficult, we will only make ourselves feel like a failure when life is too hard.” Page 117
• “And if we choose to stay underwater without kicking our way to the surface, we eventually forget how to swim.” Page 117
• “Accept any and all help you can get and consider it a gift from God.” Page 121
• Bonus: “Adjusting your view can work wonders.” Page 122

Chapter Twelve: I Need To Make Myself Smaller

• “No one person can be your source for all the answers, but you can glean a handful of powerful thoughts here and a dash of insight there.” Page 125
• “Do you really think God made you- uniquely wonderful you- in hopes you would deny your true self because it might be off-putting to others?” Page 130
• “Do you stop yourself from daring to try something new because you’re already positive you’ll fail?” Page 130
• “Do you hesitate to admit your dreams aloud because you’re nervous about others making fun of you or judging you for your choices?” Page 131
• “I believe you are not a mistake- and feeling guilt about who you are (working, staying at home, overweight, underweight, overeducated, uneducated, emotional, bookish, street-smart, or whatever) does a disservice to yourself and the Creator who made you. Page 132

Chapter Thirteen: I’m going to marry Matt Damon

• “Because I think my ability to imagine my dreams in intricate detail is one of the biggest reasons I’ve been able to achieve them.” Page 138
• “In the absence of clear direction or real vision, I just imagined one, I latched on to the idea of a future so I knew a direction to walk in.” Page 139
• “For me, daydreams were an attempt to keep my eyes above the waves.” Page 139
• “Do you have a goal for yourself? I’ll tell you again: write it down.” Page 140
• “Naming your goals is also important, because often we struggle to even admit them to ourselves.” Page 143

Chapter Fourteen: I’m a Terrible Writer

• “Someone else’s opinion of you is none of your business.” Page 146
• “You create it because you have a God Given ability to do so.” Page 147
• “You have to be willing to put it out there even if they don’t like it. Even if they hate it.” Page 147
• “Deciding that something is bad simply because other people don’t like or understand it is not a theory I can co-sign.” Page 147
• “You have to decide that you care more about creating your magic and pushing it out into the world than you do about how it will be received.” Page 148

Chapter Fifteen: I will never get past this

• “There are many types of trauma- big, small, childhood, adult- but we all belong to a club we never asked to join.” Page 153
• “I am still here because I will not let a nightmare have more power than my dreams.” Page 155
• “The path through hardship or extreme trauma is one of the most difficult things a being can encounter. But make no mistake: the only way is to fight through” Page 157
• “Talk about it” Page 158
• When speaking about her husband and the power of listening she says “He listened, and in doing so, willingly took my pain inside himself and made the load lighter to bear.”Page 158 *In light of all that’s going on in our world, I feel like this is so important. Sometimes all people need is for you to listen!

Chapter Sixteen: I can’t tell the truth

This chapter focuses on her struggles through adoption, I will write about the impact this chapter had on me in part three of my blog post. I think you’ll be surprised by my take away. 😊

Chapter Seventeen: I am defined by my weight

• “When people talk about divorce, they use words like irreconcilable or messy. But those words are too light- too easy for the destruction of a family.” Page 175
• “Food is an easy companion.” Page 178
• “Who you are today is incredible. You have so many wonderful qualities to offer the world, and they are uniquely yours.” Page 181
• “ I think we function better mentally, emotionally, and physically when we take care of our bodies with nourishment, water, and exercise.” Page 182
• “Today I believe it’s not your weight that defines you, but the care and consideration you put into your body absolutely does.” Page 182
• BONUS: Edit your media- “if there are seasons when following them doesn’t make sense. Be smart about it” Page 185 when talking about people or things that temp you on social media.

Chapter Eighteen: I need a drink

• “Need implies that something is essential, necessary.” Page 190
• “If I can’t be strong for myself, I at least want to be strong for my babies.” Page 191
• “The difficult seasons we walk through are how we learn to build up strength to manage any situation.” Page 193
• “Running, having dinner with my girlfriends, praying, going to therapy, or allowing myself to cry are the best methods I know of for building up the strength necessary to carry on.” Page 194
• “If you don’t feel strong, if as you read these lines you feel weak in your soul… I want you to ask yourself if you’re pushing to find strength or if you’re reaching for a quick fix. Strength is never easy to come by.” Page 194

Chapter Nineteen: There’s only one right way to be.

• “I didn’t know that being other was wrong, because I didn’t know that other” Page 198
• “I also know that I can’t possible love them well if I first demand that they be like me in order to receive it.” Page 199
• “We have to consider if there are areas where we stay safely inside the lines we’ve drawn or those drawn for us by our family of origin.” Page 201
• “Is it possible that the conversations we might have together, the questions we might wrestle with, the postures we’ll have to adopt in order to engage in a meaningful relationship would help us grow into better version of ourselves?” Page 201
• “We need to be in a wider community not because we’re attempting to sharpen their clarity on a subject but because we’re hoping to soften the edges of our own hearts.” Page 204

Chapter Twenty: I need a hero.

Chapter Twenty, the last chapter in the book, ends with these words…

“Stop the negative self-talk, stop abusing your body, stop putting off for tomorrow or Monday or next year. Stop crying about what happened and take control of what happens next. Getup, right now. Rise up from where you’ve been, scrub away the tears and the pain of yesterday, and start again… Girl, wash your face!” Page 213

…Can I get an Amen?

Rachel Coney Photography

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I started reading “Girl, wash your face” about a month ago after my sister in law recommended it. I read it slowly and stopped to highlight anything that specifically spoke to me. I’m so glad I did! Being able to go back and see what stood out to me was really a blessing. In this three part blog, I’m going to give FIVE examples of things I’ve highlighted from each chapter. I am going to focus heavily on Chapter 16 in the third post because of the way it impacted me.

Stick with me, it’s going to be a long one 😉 In the book, she titles each chapter with a lie she has believed, and then talks about how to speak truths into that lie.

Chapter One: Something else will make me happy.

• “Certainly, there are times when storms toss you around or cover the deck with water or break the mask clean in half but that’s when you need to fight your way back, to throw all the water off the boat bucket by bucket.” Page 5
• “if you’re unhappy, that’s on you” Page 5
• “Moving or traveling or getting away? It’s just geography. Moving doesn’t change who you are. It only changes the view outside your window. You must choose to be happy, grateful and fulfilled. Page 7
• “When you’re engaged and involved and choosing to enjoy your own life, it doesn’t matter where you are, or frankly, what negative things get hurled at you. You’ll still find happiness because it’s not about where you are but who you are.” Page 8
• “You are in charge of your own life, sister, and there’s not one thing in it that you’re not allowing to be there. Page 9

Chapter Two: I’ll start tomorrow.

• “Life happens and the plan we make fall through- but when it becomes such a regular occurrence that the promises we make hold very little actual power in our lives, we need to check ourselves. Page 12
• “Our society makes plenty of room for complacency or laziness; we’re rarely surrounded by accountability. “Page 14
• “When you really want something, you’ll find a way. When you don’t really want something, you’ll find an excuse” Page 14
• “Our words have power, but our actions shape our lives” Page 17
• “Slow down your yes. Only commit to things you know you can accomplish because they’re incredibly important to you. Page 18

Chapter Three: I’m not good enough.

• “The belief that in order to be loved, I felt I needed to produce something.” Page 22
• In relation to working hard then taking one vacation she says… “Three years of sixty-hour weeks followed by one two-week break does not a decompressed girl make.” Page 26
• “Our bodies are incredible” …”they will absolutely shut down to get what they need.” Page 26
• In relation to our bodies, she says it can cause “a physical response to an emotion problem” Page 28
• “Stop obsessing over the next victory, and to apricate the simple parts of today.” Page 29

Chapter Four: I’m better than you.

• “Bringing others down wont’ elevate you.” (Page 35)
• “Our judgement prohibits us from beautiful, life-affirming friendships. Our judgement keeps us from connecting in deeper, richer ways because we’re too struck on the surface-level assumptions we’ve made.” Page 37
• “Imagine all the things you would’ve missed today if you’d only been out here for yourself” Page 39
• “The first step toward getting past the desire to judge and compete is admitting that nobody is immune.” Page 40
• “The second step is recognizing that just because you believe it doesn’t mean it’s true for everyone” Page 40
• Bonus: “Be careful about dressing your judgements up as accountability to make your conscience feel better” Page 41

Chapter Five: The lie that loving him is enough for me.

• “People will treat you with as much or as little respect as you allow them to” Page 51
• “Very few roads to love are easy to navigate” Page 52
• “If you’re not able to value yourself, no one else will” Page 53
• “Sometimes choosing to walk away, even if it means breaking your own heart, can be the greatest act of self-love you have access to.” Page 53
• “Be careful any time the only voice of advisement is your own. Your judgment is easily clouded when you’re in love.” Page 54

Chapter Six: The lie that no is the final answer.

• “No doesn’t mean that you stop; it simply means that you change course in order to make it to your destination.” Page 59
• “The only thing worse than giving up is wishing that you hadn’t” Page 67
• “Your dream is worth fighting for, and while you’re not in control of what life throws at you, you are in control of the fight.” Page 68
• “Nobody will ever care about your dream as much as you do. Ever” Page 70
• “You are worthy of wanting something more.” Page 70

Chapter Seven: Go read that one for yourself <Blushing face>

Chapter Eight: I don’t’ know how to be a mom. For this chapter, I will only bullet this one point because I think it’s so profound.

• “YOU CAN’T FAIL AT A JOB YOU WERE CREATED TO DO” Page 87 She points out here for the cynical reader (guilty) that while she knows some moms do fail, she speaking to well meaning moms who are reading her book.

Chapter Nine; I’m not a good mom.

• “I am one of the most organized people I have ever met, and even with all of my planning, I still am constantly forgetting things- or remembering them at midnight the night before they’re due” Page 92.
• “… and pretty good is way better than trying to fake perfection any day of the week” Page 93
• “You need to care, truly care that you are raising your babies to grow up to be good people” Page 95
• “Please stop allowing your fear of getting it wrong to color every beautiful thing you’re doing right.” Page 97
• “I will do my best, and I will trust that my best is exactly what God intended for these babies.” Page 98

Chapter Ten: I should be further along by now.

• “Our own negative self-talk can be more damaging than the emotional abuse heaped on us by a hateful parent.” Page 105
• “God has perfect timing” Page 106
• “When God is stretching you and growing you or maybe forging you in fires hotter than you think you can withstand- all of it is growing you for the person you’re becoming, for a future you can’t even imagine.” Page 106
• “But I have learned that along with my list of goals, I have to give myself some grace.” Page 109
• “Remember, when you keep silent, you give those lies power.” Page 111

I hope you’ve been as encouraged by these quotes as I have. If you haven’t already, go pick up a copy of “Girl, wash your face” by Rachel Hollis and start reading! I recommend highlighting things that stand out to you, so that you can look back on things later and see your improvements! Stay tuned for the second half of the book, and my special adoption blog that highlights Chapter 16 of this book!

Thanks for reading 😊

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Who doesn’t love a fun nursery!? Black and white is SO in right now, and I jumped at the chance to design this modern nursery for a friend of mine!

The first thing we did was find crib bedding we liked. We found the bedding at target! There were several items that matched this bedding set. Some examples are these blankets and this rug. Amazon also has these crib sheets would work perfectly as well!

We wanted something cute, but functional to be able to hold toys. On these ikea shelves we added a mix of decorative stuff, and baskets for toys, pacifiers, blankets, etc…  We found these adorable book ends on amazon! We topped the shelves with an entrusted design sign! This is our 30″ circle sign to help you with size perspective.

When choosing a rug for a room, it’s a balance between choosing a rug that is big enough to be substantial but not so large that it overwhelms the room. We went with this crib  and just didn’t use the wheels. Another crib option is iron. While it is more expensive, it’s beautiful! Especially for a little girl! (Not that I would know what designing a little girl’s room is like 😉 )

We actually got this ikea rocking chair however, I also found this rocking chair  at target for another option. This pillow was too cute to pass up! You can put it in the crib when the baby is not in it or place it as an accent pillow in the rocker. When you want to prop your feet up a pouf ottoman is great accessory! There are several options for these! Target, Wayfair, and Ashley Furniture are good places to find these.

For the drapes we took a fun girls trip to IKEA! We love a reason for a girls trip and IKEA has very affordable but nice looking pre-made drapes! I would suggest getting as long of drapes as your room allows. The higher you can hang the rod, the taller it makes the room appear. For my own personal style I like for the drapes to “pool” at the bottom just a little bit. However, some prefer that the drapes simply “kiss” the floor.

When picking a dresser, we wanted sleek and modern. We chose black so that it would compliment the crib and stand out on the gray wall a bit more. A must have in my opinion is something personalized in a nursery! This changing pad cover from carousel designs is the perfect touch! The picture and basket about the dresser were both from Hobby Lobby, and the chandelier is from Ashley Furniture!

Lastly, with permission, I wanted to share a few pictures of the family and baby who occupy this sweet nursery! I hope you’ve enjoyed this design blog, and feel inspired to get out and design something 🙂

** All pictures taken by Rachel Coney.

Satan knows our weak spots. This probably isn’t the first time you’ve heard it, but do you really believe it?

The very first encounter of Satan in the Bible is a clear picture of this. In Genesis chapter 2 verses 15-17 we see God giving Adam clear instructions for what was allowed in the Garden. He tells him  “you may surely eat of every tree of the garden, but of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil you shall not eat, for in the day that you eat of it you shall surely die”. (Vs.16-17 esv) The next few verses show God creating a helper for Adam (Eve).Thus meaning that Eve was not there for the original instructions. While I am not disputing that Eve knew the rules of the garden (because she absolutely did) i’m simply pointing out that the Bible doesn’t specifically state who told her them. This makes me wonder if that is why Satan went to Eve instead of Adam. In Chapter 3 verse 1 we see Satans first attempt to twist God’s words and place doubt. Satan ask “Did God actually say you shall not eat of any tree in the garden?” Because we know without doubt that Adam heard the words straight from Gods mouth, he was likely not Satan’s first target. We also know that God didn’t say they can’t eat from any tree, he said they can’t eat from that tree. Hear me when I say I am not trying to lessen Eve’s sin, or shift the blame of it (Eve was fully aware of the rules) I am only pointing out that perhaps Satan knew that Eve would be easier to persuade. The Bible clearly documents more encounters of God and Adam up to this point and placing doubt in Eve’s mind while having Eve place doubt in Adams was an easier plan from this crafty serpent.

If we really believe that Satan knows our weaknesses, shouldn’t we know them as well? Go on a journey of yourself. Evaluate your weak places and ask for Gods protection over them. What areas in your life will you most believe Satans lies? Where are you weak? Is it your self worth? Marriage? Parenting? Friendships? 1 Peter 5:8 says “Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.” Be mindful. Watch. Know where you are weak, and know that Satan can and he will attack that area. If we don’t want to allow Satan to place doubt in our minds about the truth of God’s Word, shouldn’t we know his what His Word says? Get in the Word. Study it. Know it. Ask God to reveal to you what you need.

After all, when the serpent ask us if God really said something, how will we know if we haven’t talked to Him?

You know those times when you have to tell your kids to just trust you because you know what’s best? Every momma knows what I’m talking about. When they aren’t tired and fight you on laying down, but then 3 minutes later they’re asleep? Or when they think they might die of starvation and they’re almost positive the tootsie roll will fill them up just as well as that peanut butter sandwich you just made? Or how about when you KNOW they’ll like something so you make them try it anyway, and even though they won’t admit it…you can see in their eyes that you were right? That’s how Jesus feels with us. He sees our hearts desires and he wants so badly to fulfill them. In His time. Sometimes in our flesh we think if God would just give us what we asked for everything would work out perfectly! When I’m wrestling with God about something that I want, I like to talk about it out loud. As if he was visibly right in front of me. It helps me to hear how silly I sound telling the God who created all things (including me) how things should go. That’s not to say we shouldn’t ASK God for things we desire. Just because he already know us, (and already knows what’s best) doesn’t mean he doesn’t want to hear our hearts. In Genesis Abraham (called Abram then) ask God for an heir. He wanted children and asked God why he didn’t have them.(Gen 15:2-3) And do you know what it says God thought of that? He called him righteous in the Faith. (Gen 15:6) When we turn to God for our questions and hearts desires, it shows our Faith in His answers. If you’re yearning for something that you’re not getting, just remember that you are known and loved by your Father. And just as you know what’s best for your own children, he knows what’s best for you. Rest assured my friend, he wants to fulfill your every want and need in time. We know that biblically the heart is the most deceitful(Jeremiah 17:9-10) therefore, we have to seek Him to insure that our desires match His. Lean in, Ask, Listen and Accept that you are known by your creator.

Dear Griffen-

The day I’ve dreaded since you were born has finally come and gone. Kindergarten. I always said that Jesus was coming back before you started school because he had to know I couldn’t handle sending you! Turns out I was wrong. You’re gone. And you absolutely love it. Sending you to school brought on all kinds of emotions for me. You’re gone from our breakfast and lunch table five days a week. I don’t  hear you and your brothers laughing throughout the day anymore (or fighting 😉 ) You aren’t home to ride your bike after breakfast, or catch lizards after lunch. I’m now waking you up everyday instead of you getting to wake up on your own and come cuddle me. There are almost EIGHT hours of everyday that you spend outside of our house. Another adult is in charge of your well being from 7:50-3:15! Before sending you, my mommy heart couldn’t take all of these things. A sweet friend of mine told me to pray that you’d get the teacher you needed, and meet one good friend for the year. God is so faithful! Your teacher recently wrote me an email saying how great you were doing, and how she loved your tender heart. The fact that she knows about your tender heart just one week into school made me a little more at ease. You come home everyday talking about a new friend. The excitement in your eyes when you tell us something new you learned is such a blessing to experience. Here at home, Beckett is growing as a big brother too. He’s remembering all the things you did for him, and he’s doing them for his little brothers 🙂 So as much as I didn’t want kindergarten to come, i’ll admit that so far seeing you grow, learn, and share your light with other people isn’t half bad. I’m so proud to be your mommy! I love you, buddy. Keep shining!

Love, Your Mommy

To anyone out there who is struggling with any transition, find the joy. I did a bible study by Margaret Feinberg where she encouraged us to find “joy bombs” (which i’ve linked at the bottom of this page. It’s a great bible study, especially if you’re struggling to find your joy!) No matter your situation, look for 3 joy bombs throughout your day. For Griffen’s first day of kindergarten my joy bombs were a smooth drop off with no tears, seeing Beckett step up as a big brother, and 3:15 when I got to pick my baby boy up and hear about his day! We can always find joy if we aren’t looking for misery 🙂 Seeing how much Griffen loves kindergarten brings me joy more than anything else.

Train up a child in the way the he should go: and when he gets old, he will not depart from it.  Proverbs 22:6 KJV

As promised, this post is our images from our lifestyle photo session with the fabulous Rachel Coney! If i’m being honest, I’m not always the greatest at doing photo shoots. It can be a lot of work when you have multiple children! I always tend to over analyze how I look, how my kids are acting, and what kind of mood my husband will be in during the shoot. Lifestyle session is a different story!  It took so much stress off of me because we were all in our lounge wear just hanging out. We didn’t have to be super posed or stress about what we would wear. In fact, we were all barefoot!

Here are some of my favorites in color…

And a few black and whites, because who doesn’t love a good black and white? 😉

I hope you’ve enjoyed these, and maybe even been inspired to gather up your family and do a lifestyle photo shoot! You won’t regret it 🙂

Until next time! XOXO

Our Lincoln Hays is here! We woke up the morning of August 1st and headed to the hospital for our planned induction! I must say, a planned induction was pretty nice! When we got to the hospital they already had our room ready, and our nurse came in and started asking all her necessary questions. After SEVEN tries for an IV, we finally got one. (For some reason i’m always a hard patient to get an IV on, so we halfway expected a little trouble) They drew blood, ran labs, and ordered my antibiotics. Around 9:30 in the morning, my OB came by to check on me. I was already at a 4 cm and she said it was time to break my water. Right after she broke my water I told them I was ready for an epidural. I wasn’t feeling too much pain yet, and wasn’t really interested in changing that. 😉 Not too much longer the CRNA showed up to start the epidural. Zack actually got to stay in the room and watch the process. (I made sure to tell him he wasn’t allowed to make any comments regarding needle size, say phrases like oh my goodness, or ask any questions until the epidural was complete ) The epidural took a little longer to work than they were expecting, and I had to lay flat on my back for what seemed like forever. Have you ever laid flat on your back while 9 months pregnant? Ouch. But it finally started working! Not long after it started working, I started itching everywhere. The CRNA (who was very attentive and prompt) came in and switched the kind of medicine which solved the problem! Around 1:45pm I asked the nurse to check me. I was starting to feel a little more pressure and thought maybe it was go time. She checked and I was a 7cm. Darn! At 2:00pm my OB came back and asked how everything was. I told her I really thought it was time to push, but that the nurse had just checked me. She asked if I wanted her to check me again and I said yes. She did, and said it was definitely go time! She went and got the nurses and they started breaking down the bed and getting everything they needed out. At 2:21pm our precious baby boy was born! The hospital I delivered at has started a new thing, and immediately put him on my chest for 1 hour of skin to skin. So we let everyone know he was born, but didn’t have any stats on him yet and no one was allowed back in the room until the hour was up. After the hour, they weighed him, cleaned him up a little (although they’ve now also decided that a bath before they’re 6 hours old is a bad idea apparently) gave him his shots, did his footprints, and gave him back to us. It was finally time for all my babies to meet! My sister in law came in to take pictures of everyone’s reactions. Some were more thrilled than others 😉

Mommy and Lincoln

Daddy introducing Collier and Griffen to Lincoln. They immediately loved him and wanted to hold him.

Our poor Beckett didn’t understand at first… he said he didn’t want another baby and acted like his life was over. Life is hard when you’re 3 and your nap didn’t happen because mommy was in labor. Haha! (To all mommy’s worried about how their current children will react to their future children, stop worrying! Children adapt. Beckett now loves his brother and probably already doesn’t remember life before him. 😉 )

Beckett starting to come around, and Collier trying desperately to get Lincoln to open his eyes! He kept saying “Like this baby Lincoln” and opening and closing his own eyes.

Next up were the grandparents! (and not pictured, my sister in law… who is always behind the camera. We love you Rachel!)

Our very first family photo. (Which we had to give out gum in order to get them to smile for. Whatever works people, whatever works)

We had a great rest of the day. We got moved into our overnight room, had great nurses, doctors and caregivers (including Zack’s cousin who we were lucky enough to have as our nurse for the day after delivery) and got to go home after a 24 hour stay!

I can’t wait to share our lifestyle newborn pictures with you! Stay tuned and subscribe so that you’ll be up to date on when I post 🙂

As always, thanks for reading!

Whew! It’s been awhile since I’ve been back to write! The truth is, I’ve been struggling lately. I’m sure i’m not alone. It’s so hard to juggle all the things life requires of us. It’s hard to feel like i’m being enough for everyone who needs me. In the song “O Come to the Altar” it ask “Have you come to the end of yourself? Do you thirst for a drink from the well?” Yes! Then it says “Jesus is calling, O come to the Altar, the Father’s arms are open wide.” I think that’s exactly my problem. I haven’t been going to the well. How can I give to others if i’m not taking time for myself? If my cup is empty, how can I pour into others? Sometimes as moms, we have to remember to take time out to recharge. Not just physical time out, but mental and spiritual as well. Our Father’s arms are open wide to embrace us! Our spiritual health directly correlates with our attitude, and honestly my attitude lately has been rough. When we aren’t going to the Father to be fed, we aren’t feeding others well. So tonight I challenge you (and me) to head to the well. Spend time alone in prayer, asking God to remind you that you are enough. That he chose you to be those kid’s mommy, that man’s wife, in that position at work. Whatever it is that you’re feeling not enough for, you are. Sometimes we just need a little time out to be refreshed and tackle the day!

“Very early in the morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place, where he prayed.” Mark 1:35

PS: I haven’t forgotten about my “What’s in my hospital bag?” post! Stay tuned for that, and as always, thanks for reading!